私たちは、神が肉体化した姿、
醜い肉体を持った神、
醜い神に嫌悪感を抱いている。
“they don’t know how to be sons” said Anthony Quinn in an interview when asked about his children. He then went on to say, “and that may be because I did not know how to father”.
Psalm 55
2 Listen, God, to my prayer;
do not hide from my pleading;
3 hear me and give answer.
I rock with grief; I groan
4 at the uproar of the enemy,
the clamor of the wicked.
They heap trouble upon me,
savagely accuse me.
5 My heart pounds within me;
death’s terrors fall upon me.
6 Fear and trembling overwhelm me;
shuddering sweeps over me.
7 I say, “If only I had wings like a dove
that I might fly away and find rest.
8 Far away I would flee;
I would stay in the desert.
Selah
9 “I would soon find a shelter
from the raging wind and storm.”
10 Lord, check and confuse their tongues.
For I see violence and strife in the city
11 making rounds on its walls day and night.
Within are mischief and trouble;
12 treachery is in its midst;
oppression and fraud never leave its streets.
13 For it is not an enemy that reviled me—
that I could bear—
Not a foe who viewed me with contempt,
from that I could hide.
14 But it was you, my other self,
my comrade and friend,
15 You, whose company I enjoyed,
at whose side I walked
in the house of God.